Currently Listening Absolutely-Story of a Girl By Nine Days see related

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                              ROGELIO CARONONGAN
                              JOPHEL DE VERA
                              BENJAMIN FRANCISCO DE VERA
                              ...and probably the rest...you know who you are.

I'm sorry for mentioning your names here, guys. But I just want to say that I AM SO FED UP!!! I know that I'm the type of person who would laugh and ride on to whatever your jokes have to say but I guess you're already taking my "too considerate" side for granted. Masyado ko na yatang kinakawawa ang sarili ko eh... I don't seem to stand up for myself anymore. You may see me as that happy-go-lucky kind of person who doesn't seem to care with whatever people have to say but hey, I have feelings too, you know. You may call me whatever you want but please touch up with your manners. I swear that I haven't been calling you any names that could possibly hurt your feelings ever since I met any one of you because it's how I show respect. And I know you know what respect means. Just so you all know, it has never been my intention to hurt anyone...even the ones who seem to hurt me already. And there's that side in me that believes you're still a good person despite everything. So if you happen to come across my blog and read this, I hope you understand... Yes, call me a coward for not actually having the courage for saying this straight to your face. But if anyone could say this to them in person, please do. Do it for me. Thank you.

TO: !!! --- kung matatamaan ka man sa mga sasabihin ko, siguro ikaw nga yun --- STOP BEING SO MA-FEELING. I'm not saying this in a rude way. I just hope you don't make any unnecessary judgements or guesses if you don't really know anything about it. You could be totally wrong and totally take things the wrong way, so whatever it is you're thinking, it would be better to just ASK ME. Then I swear, I'll be answering the truth for you.

                                  "I don't care what they say..."

You see, I don't use that line anymore. Because I'd simply be lying if I did. Whoever you are, your comments matter to me. I don't exactly know why it affects me in some way but I guess just through saying that I have my own feelings too somehow explains it.

*sigh* I'm hurt, sad, part-happy, confused, everything all in one. I don't know if I'll continue showing my infamous fake smiles or just let it all out and cry...